Sodium

My trainer from the Biggest Loser just called me to tell me that I'm doing a great job with my torching, but I need to watch my sodium levels.

Sodium is my weakness. I love salty things. Guess I need to work on things. I need to not only look at calories, but also sodium.

This. Starts. Tomorrow.

Day 6 [excuses.. excuses..]

So if you read my first post, you know that my parents and I signed up for the Biggest Loser competition at church. What you don't know... I'm the only one doing it. 

Dad's reasoning: He can't do it because he's going to miss 3 of the weeks because he'll be out of town with Boy Scouts. Okay, that's kind of legitimate. But I know he's been dreading this since the beginning. 

Mom's reasoning: adding one more thing to her life, is giving her anxiety attacks. She feels like anything more than weight watchers, is overdoing it. 

Honestly, I feel like these are just excuses. I feel like they aren't going to change. There going to just sit wherever they are and not change. I've seen them do it so many times. They told me that me doing this will give them motivation. I shouldn't have to be that for them. 

When they told me this morning.. right before we were supposed to leave for the first Biggest Loser meeting.. that they weren't going. That they were quitting before they started.. honestly, I was mad. I wanted to yell at them. Tell them that they're never going to get anywhere if they don't persevere and act now. I didn't actually do that.. but I did in my head.

I'm still reeling from it. We were supposed to do this all together. We were going to support each other. Go through the same things. And now.. I'm alone in my house, trying to follow this program. I know I can do it. It just sucks not to have support, ya know? Because even though they're "trying".. they're not. 

I'm just angry today. 

Day 2

This morning I woke up at 6:30 to go work out with one of my mentors. Our work out began at 7:20 a.m. Besides this, I didn't have to be anywhere until 10:15 a.m. We were working out in the atrium at church, when the new youth pastor walked in and said we were up really early.

He knows I don't get up that early, so he said something directly to me and asked me why. I responded with, Tiffany needed someone to work out with." But it doesn't stop there. Yes, Tiffany needed someone to work out with. But I also know that if I have someone keeping me accountable, then I'm more likely to work out.

Something else that I thought of on my way home was this:
I'm not changing my exercise and eating habits to have the "perfect" body. That's not even obtainable. I'm changing my exercise and eating habits because I've seen what it's like when you don't. I have seen family members struggle with health issues. Doctors have told them that if they lost weight, the likeliness of having the same problems would be very slim. Do these family members lose weight to become healthier? No. Why not? because it's hard.

I'm going to kick these problems in the butt before they get me.
High blood pressure, diabetes, sleep apnea, high cholesterol...
I am not going to have to struggle with these because of my weight.

This is why I'm trying to be healthier. I want better for my future.

Day 1

Today is the start of something new. My new mantra:

Hard work. Dedication. Sass.

Yesterday, I signed up for the Biggest Loser program at my church. This morning I woke up motivated to take on the world. I woke up with motivation to work out and count all the calories I'm eating today. I'm still in that mood. I want to do this. No more failing. No more quitting. That's where my mantra comes in. I have to work hard, stay dedicate to it.. and have sass to do it. 

I know there will be days that I won't want to do it anymore. But that's what this is for. I just have to look at this:

I don't want to stay this way. I want to be different. Imagine how much healthier and happier I could be. This isn't about being the world's definition of "thin". This is about being healthy. Living my life the way God intended it. 

I'm going to try to blog about my whole experience. Hopefully this will help me.