Frustration

Today has been a very frustrating day for me. Actually.. This week has been rather frustrating.
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Sunday night I was craving pizza. So, I made some frozen pizza. I ate more than half the pizza by myself. Granted, Sunday is my cheat day, but I shouldn't be scarfing down pizza on my cheat day.

Monday- I had very little sleep.. so I don't even remember what I ate that day and I didn't log anything in my food journal either.

Yesterday, I honestly didn't even try.

Today, I went to the doctor. I stepped on the scale and it showed that I gained 3 lbs. Which, is probably water weight and due to the fact that I haven't been paying attention. But what really upset me was that my doctor told me that since my weight was so high that I needed to come back for blood tests to see if I had high cholesterol or diabetes. That felt like a slap in the face.. I got into my car and cried all the way to Walgreens to pick up a prescription (which was also frustrating).

I channeled all my frustration into eating well today, and going for a run. I prayed about it.. and I'm trying not to be upset about it.. but it's hard. Here I am, having lost 30 lbs since the last time I went to the doctor. I don't have any symptoms of anything (besides eczema).. and now she wants to test me for high cholesterol and diabetes?? It doesn't make sense to me.

I looked up what my BMI is.. and I'm in the obesity range. But what shocked me was by how much. For my height, to not be considered obese anymore.. and just overweight, I have to get to 185 lbs. That means losing 24 lbs. I know I can do it.. I've lost that much already. I know I need to get there. It's just insanely frustrating to be where I'm at now.. when I work so hard already.

Here's my stats for this week:

Starting weight: 208.4 lbs

Current weight: 209.6 lbs

Goal weight: 150 lbs

Pounds to go: 59.6 lbs

Weeks until deadline: 33 weeks

Pump it!

Hey all!

The last week has been super motivating!  Friday night my manager/friend brought some dresses for me to try on for a couple of weddings at the end of the month. There's a GORGEOUS purple dress that I adore. However it's tight... By tight I mean it won't zip up... At all. These weddings are in 10 & 11 days.. It would take a miracle for them to fit. But I'm working for that miracle. I've worked out every day since then. Every time I want to give up during a work out, I think, "purple dress... purple dress..." over and over again

I realize that it's a bit far-fetched to think that I could go from not being able to zip up this dress to being comfortable in iron this short of a time period. But it won't be from a lack of trying. 

I also had my trainer weigh me today. I gained .8 lbs, but with amping up my work outs, I'm not surprised it went up a little. I'm gaining muscle like crazy! But I feel smaller... because a pound of muscle takes up less room than a pound of fat. :)

Starting weight: 208.4 lbs

Current weight: 206.8 lbs

Goal weight: 150 lbs

Pounds to go: 56.8 lbs

Weeks until deadline: 33 weeks

Between Happiness and Disappointment

Hey all,

I had my trainer weigh me today.  The first time I stepped on the scale it showed an insane amount of loss. I almost cried, but just to make sure it was right I stepped on the scale about five more times. Three of these times it read "error".. and the next two were not as insane of an amount. I did lose weight... I lost 2.4 lbs! Which is good.. it's closer to my goal [that's what I keep telling myself], but it's still about a pound and a half short of where I wanted to be after two weeks.

I know it's because I've been working out more.. and while my clothes are fitting better because I've lost fat, I've gained muscle. Which takes up less room... but I'm slightly disappointed, even though I know I shouldn't be. Perhaps, I'm too hard on myself. I just keep thinking "what if I didn't have that slice of pie on the 4th... and the next day?" and "I should've worked out more..." but that's only going to make things worse.

If I'm going to do this, I have to stay positive.

Starting Weight: 208.4 lbs
Current Weight: 206 lbs
Goal Weight: 150 lbs
Pounds to go: 56 lbs
Weeks until deadline: 34

In a Weeks Time

Hey all!

It's been a crazy week with work and 4th of July. However... In the last week:

I have done---
Bob Harper's Ab workout video (crazy intense.. but the man is a genius). I can't lie.. I didn't finish the whole video. I did half and I couldn't move anymore.

Zumba! Shout out to my Zumba friends! You're the best!

Cleaned my whole level of the house

Ab Pro workout app! (it's free!!)

Ran--
2.31 miles on Monday
2.89 miles today

My eating wasn't spot on yesterday because of the holiday. I didn't even track. But I tried to make good choices. As well as on Wednesday night when we celebrated my mom's birthday. But I'm back on track today.

I don't have a weight for you because I don't trust any scales except the one at my trainer's and she's out of town. But I will have one on Tuesday. Promise! I'm hoping that I'll have lost a significant amount, but with how much I've been working out, I'm not sure since I'm probably gaining muscle at a significant rate. But, we shall see...

Check ya all later! <3