Day 6 [excuses.. excuses..]

So if you read my first post, you know that my parents and I signed up for the Biggest Loser competition at church. What you don't know... I'm the only one doing it. 

Dad's reasoning: He can't do it because he's going to miss 3 of the weeks because he'll be out of town with Boy Scouts. Okay, that's kind of legitimate. But I know he's been dreading this since the beginning. 

Mom's reasoning: adding one more thing to her life, is giving her anxiety attacks. She feels like anything more than weight watchers, is overdoing it. 

Honestly, I feel like these are just excuses. I feel like they aren't going to change. There going to just sit wherever they are and not change. I've seen them do it so many times. They told me that me doing this will give them motivation. I shouldn't have to be that for them. 

When they told me this morning.. right before we were supposed to leave for the first Biggest Loser meeting.. that they weren't going. That they were quitting before they started.. honestly, I was mad. I wanted to yell at them. Tell them that they're never going to get anywhere if they don't persevere and act now. I didn't actually do that.. but I did in my head.

I'm still reeling from it. We were supposed to do this all together. We were going to support each other. Go through the same things. And now.. I'm alone in my house, trying to follow this program. I know I can do it. It just sucks not to have support, ya know? Because even though they're "trying".. they're not. 

I'm just angry today.